On Life.

I love our life. I am SO grateful for it honestly.
I love that Josh is fulfilling his doctorate dreams by being in school to be an ER doctor, I am so grateful for being able to be home with Eli and watch him grow and develop into his own little person.
I love going on walks with him during the day and having our little lunch dates just the two of us. I've been finding beauty in the simple things and trying to find thankfulness in everything apart of our lives. Sometimes it's definitely tough but I realize if I have a positive attitude then so does the rest of my family.

"If mama ain't happy, then nobody happy." 

This is SUCH a true statement and a good reminder for me to watch my attitude around the house.

 We live a loving, but a bit of a hectic life and I think lately it's been wearing on Eli. This is so hard to see. This morning for example he woke up at 3:45am and didn't go back down until 6 am. Josh woke up to get ready for work and we took Eli out of his room and he shared some breakfast with Josh. While Josh was getting ready to leave Eli wouldn't let him go. He walked out into the garage with Josh waving good bye at the same time as trying to get in the car with him. Heart breaking! I think it hurt Josh more then anything because he had to leave and knew he wouldn't be coming back until late because of class.

1 Corinthians 16:14 Do everything in love. Let all that you do be done in love. Let all that you do be done in love. Let all your things be done with charity.
While it may be hard on Josh to fulfill his dream of being a doctor, I know he enjoys it (well, maybe not the road to get there) because it is IN love he's doing it for himself, for his family and most importantly I know he is going to glorify God with his career. A long and tedious road, but it will all be worth it.

There is not another person in this world who loves Eli more then his daddy. The bond they share is amazing. While I tend to get jealous of Josh because his patience for Eli easily outweigh's mine (he doesn't spend all day with him), I am so very appreciative for their bond. It's a bond he can't share with anyone but his daddy and I absolutely love it.

Eli, we love you more then you will ever know. Thank you for being you. Thank you for showing us innocence and happiness through the eyes of a child. Thank you for showing us how to be kiddos again. We love you so much and we can't wait to see you grow up.




Over the past several months since my blogging pause I have actually come back and started several posts, mainly about what's been going on in our lives. Let me tell you A LOT has happened, but at the same time I think it's all led up to this point as well. Here's a quick synapsis:
  • Traveled to California for my best friends wedding.
  • Celebrated five years of marriage in Carmel, Santa Cruz & Monterey.
  • Dealt with a freak house infestation of flies (no really, the bug people are flaberghasted on the whole situation) TWICE since July/August time.
  • Got in a car accident.
  • My 25th birthday. 
  • Applied to BSU to finish my bachelors.
  • Eli is now 20 months. 
Whew! It's been an eventful past few months if I say so. Bugs, accidents, travel & celebrations, I feel as if writing a post about it all doesn't even begin to explain it. But honestly it all doesn't matter. Sure I am SO grateful our car accident wasn't worse and that Eli is still rear facing in the car (and will be for a LONG time), but honestly God has shown me a lot during the tougher times of the past few months.
He has shown me things are mattering less and less to me and how to plan ahead a lot better. For instance we have a large family to which we purchase Christmas gifts for, this year we started Christmas shopping in June. Yes, June. It has been SO much less stressful for us already to have the majority of the Christmas shopping done this year. On top of Christmas are quite a few birthday's in our families (and some big birthdays this year), so planning things has proven to be more cost effective as well. I would say between Christmas and birthdays we have about 75% of the gifts purchased, which has been amazing.

All of these life lessons lately have been from God showing me how grateful I am to be in the spot in my life. Our child is healthy & happy. We have steady income coming in. I may not have my degree finished, but I am SO grateful to be doing what I am at home with Eli. I get to be his mom and not worry about someone else parenting him. Josh doesn't have to worry from work about Eli or myself because we are safe and Eli is taken care of to the best of our abilities. We are ever so grateful for the endless blessings in our life.

Philippians 4:11
Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am.

I struggled for a LONG time about not being happy being a stay at home mom. I was not happy and truly nothing could making me happy about it. Don't get me wrong, I was grateful for it but I wasn't happy. I've had this desire to finish my degree for a long time, but I didn't know what to finish it WITH. I have my associates degree, but I desire for my bachelors like no other. So last month I did it. I applied for schooling. To be honest with you I still have no clue what I really am going to finish my degree with, but I'm okay with that. I've taken the next step to actually finish and it will take me longer then normal, but that's okay as well. God didn't put this desire in my heart to finish it for no reason. I know He has a purpose for me and for that specific degree (whatever it may be), but as of right now I am praying a lot harder about that purpose and that He leads me to finish it with what He wants. 
That's where I am right now.

P.S. Eli has grown an inch and a half in two months. What?!